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| I have this picture
Hanging on my wall
It haunts me in my dreams
It gives me hope in the day
Reminds me of the past
Leaves questions about the future
It shines light in the dark
And brings darkness to the light
Full of good memories
Yet still full of bad
Its worth more than tent thousand words
But it renders me speechless
It shows me the truth
But still brings questions
Its a fairy and a demon
A butterfly and a moth
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| - Living In Your Letters
I'm always assuming the worst,
but you're going on nonetheless
and there's nothing to cushion your heart led fall.
Letters from further away
keep pulling me close to home.
And there's something to cushion my callous sighs.
And I know that you hope for
longer good-byes
embracing for forever
and falling in your eyes.
(In your eyes, your eyes)
Pouring over photographs.
I'm living in your letters.
Breathe deeply from this envelope
it smells like you and I can't be
without that scent. It's filling me
with all you mean to me.
(To me)
Continually failing these trials
but you stand by me nonetheless
and you won't let me sink
though I'm beggin you, I'm begging you
Phone calls from further away
and messages on my machine,
but I don't ever tell you this distance
seems terrible.
There is no need to test my heart,
with useless space.
These roads go on forever,
there will always be a place, for you.. in my heart
So I'll hit the pavement
it's gotta be better than waiting
and pushing you far away
cause I'm scared.
So I'll take my chances
and head on my way up there.
'Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten.
Well i am totally exausted. Mentally and Physically. I havent slept in two days. I have been up thinking and crying, thinking and crying. That is the pattern. People always say you shouldnt think on the past. But rather keep yours eyes focused on the future. Well my eyes have slipped and i am looking at the past. I dont like what i see. I see how mistakes i have made then are affecting me now. And one can only wonder just how much you can do to not let your past mistakes to keep coming back to haunting you. Well mine are always coming back to haunt me. As it did last night. I was reminded of something that meant so much to me. I would still do anything for this. But all it took was one mistake and poof just like that its gone. Before i even knew what happend. It was gone, and gone forever. Just thinking about how much it meant to me, how much i cherished it. And now how much i miss it. Why, is the only question i can even think to ask. Well now i dont like my self i am having a pity party and i shouldnt be. So just ignore the previous statements. | | |
| - "The Package"
Clever got me this far
Then tricky got me in
Eye on what i'm after
I don't need another friend
Smile and drop the cliche
'Till you think I'm listening
I take just what I came for
Then I'm out the door again
Peripheral on the package
Don't care to settle in
Time to feed the monster
I don't need another friend
Comfort is a mystery
Crawling out of my own skin
Just give me what I came for, then I'm out the door again
Lie to get what I came for
Lie to get just what I need
Lie to get what I crave
Lie and smile to get what's mine
Eye on what i'm after
I don't need another friend
Nod and watch your lips move
If you need me to pretend
Because clever got me this far
Then tricky got me in
I'll take just what I came for
Then I'm out the door again
Lie to get what I came for
Lie to get what I need now
Lie to get what I'm craving
Lie and smile to get what's mine
Give this to me
Mine, mine, mine
Take what's mine
Mine, mine, mine
Take what's mine
Mine, mine, mine
Lie to get what I came for
Lie to get what I need now
Lie to get what I'm craving
Lie to smile and get what's mine
Give this to me
Take what's mine
Mine, mine, mine
Take what's mine
Give this to me
Take what's mine, take what's mine, mine...
Take what's mine, take what's mine, take what's mine,
This is mine, mine, mine [whispered]
I dont know why this seems fitting it just does. Just letting you all know that i am doing well. I hope the same goes for all of you.
Much love to each of you.
By the way i love this cd alot
EDIT::
I saw this making fun of comic books and i was remind of someone. I lov how it makes comic books look really dumb. Cause that is what they are. Finally someone showing comics in their true light. Its about time. Thanks to http://www.somethingawful.com | | |
| - The Nurse Who Loved MeSo as you can see i shave my beard off. I got bored and wanted a change. I think its for the better. But what do you think. Leave a comment telling me how you feel. | | |
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